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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 00:54

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Was to survive, this bastard.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She wouldn,t have been !

Why do flat earthers exist?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Why do people turn a blind eye to bad behaviour if someone is very good looking? Whereas if someone is ugly, they get harshly judged for everything?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

When she asked me how she looked .

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I don,t even have a pension.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

What should I do if a girl whom I love asks me to be her friend?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

Put me off passion for life!!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do our deceased do not protect us from other bad spirits?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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I was 9 years of age.

So whats the point in blame.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

We all went to grammer schools

I think the readers, may guess!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We were not on the streets..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

It was going to be , some day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Ive learnt so much.

I was very sick at this time too.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As i do to all so called friends.?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I waited trembling.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She found it foreign!.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He knew the spot.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was seconnd youngest,

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

(And it was in our own minds.)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I never cut or harmed myself..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I have no regrets .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She married twice! .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My life is so biszare .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

This is soul school!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But it wasn’t much.

Especially a lifetime of it.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

All the time i was locked up.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My family never makes their pension either.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And i lived it daily.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im still living with it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I will be 64.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He resisted the act ,that day.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I write beautiful poetry .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She was in good health!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One cannot live in the past .

So, i spoilt her more .

What did i know ?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I said to her

Would this be the day?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But, we were locked up after school.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was scared of men, in general

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Who then, do I blame.?

I couldn’t, believe it.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She loved him until the end.