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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

15.06.2025 02:35

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Who then, do I blame.?

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

This is soul school!.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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I never cut or harmed myself..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Ive learnt so much.

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I have no regrets .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

So, i spoilt her more .

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Especially a lifetime of it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He knew the spot.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

All the time i was locked up.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But it wasn’t much.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Put me off passion for life!!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

(And it was in our own minds.)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I couldn’t, believe it.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was scared of men, in general

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Comes on , in middle age.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I waited trembling.

He resisted the act ,that day.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I don,t even have a pension.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Was to survive, this bastard.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But, we were locked up after school.

My family never makes their pension either.

My life is so biszare .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She married twice! .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was seconnd youngest,

She was in good health!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im still living with it.

It was going to be , some day.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We were not on the streets..

She loved him until the end.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

So whats the point in blame.

What did i know ?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She found it foreign!.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I write beautiful poetry .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As i do to all so called friends.?

We all went to grammer schools

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I will be 64.

I said to her

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

One cannot live in the past .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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And i lived it daily.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I think the readers, may guess!

Why did i forgive my father ?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was 9 years of age.

I was very sick at this time too.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

When she asked me how she looked .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She wouldn,t have been !

Would this be the day?